Hey Loves. I’m baaaaaacccccccck. It’s been a million years since I’ve last blogged and I do apologize.
Here’s a secret that’s not really a secret. I kind of (read absolutely, definitely do) suck at keeping up routines. I’ll go hard at the gym 4-5 days a week for two months and the something will happen where I have to miss a week or only go once. And then I will never go again for three months. Or, I’ll take all these great vitamins and supplements. I’ll forget one day and then will conveniently “forget” again for two more months, after which point I’ll become obsessed with taking them every day at the same time until I stop taking them again. It’s a very unfortunate fact.
Anyways. Blog posts are no different for me. I over-complicated the idea of blogs (it’s also no secret that I over-complicate and overthink most things) and pushed myself to write these long grandiose posts with 86 pictures and 86 paragraphs that never got posted because (of course) I developed commitment issues with this idea of writing excessive blogs. So here I am, back at the drawing board, with the hopes of maintaining yet another routine. This time I’m going to try my best to remain consistent. I’m also not calling it a blog routine, since routines are where things go to die a long painful death in my life.
I recently dealt with a really bad depressive episode. It was a result of me trying to be superwoman. A sort of self-imposed martyr if you will. I took on too much between work, motherhood, catering, extra-curricular and family. Everything about my life felt heavy – like my back was literally breaking down. It was a really dark and scary period for me. Thankfully, I have really supportive family and friends and I got through it. This period in my life taught me to not overwhelm myself, to put small and realistic expectations on myself, to start small, to prioritize rest and self-care, to say no when I need to, to slow down (literally), to be kind to myself, to not compare my life and accomplishments (or lack thereof) to others, and to take my life one day at a time.
This blog post without 86 paragraphs and 86 pictures is me taking life one day at a time. I’m going to try my best to continue with the posts and to take it one day at a time. Thanks for reading.
Hint of Love, Pinch of Sôl,